How life can change...

I am so amazed of how much has happen since my last post, been out of work for 5-6 weeks really was not good, however instead of whining and cry i meditated a lot, i am meditating at least 15 minutes each morning and visualized myself solving the situation, i was by the way listening to The Process by Esther and Jerry Hicks

At work the company has decided to restructure the way it works and my job has been a part time (5-12hrs) per week as floral designer assistant, the person in charge of the department applied for another position and everyone assumed the position was mine after all i've been doing it for years, i heard so many bad expectations for me from "others" and i had to kind of prove i could do it because we also got a new manager so i took it easy and blocked all that out of my brain and every time i even felt like thinking about it i saw myself happy on that counter designing floral arrangement's as simple as that, i have also decided to discipline myself a tad more, so i do wake up by 8,30am on non working days which means i get to bed by 12 instead of 3am so some improvement there, I've been cooking because my Dr told me i need to eat at least every 4 hrs, i take my lunch to work, save more and do my best not to miss my Zumba class with Luis, i am also controlling what i spend at work, on my goals is still getting my scraproom in shape, i have not scrapbook in so long but i am so into altered journals and that is Melody's fault because of her amazing program Soul Restoration where i learned to love ModPodge and altered journaling o visual journaling and get messy not so fricked out about the acid free stuff and yeah i got the position i am "the" floral designer at our store with it came a raise in $ and hrs(around 30) per week so i feel pretty balanced, still have to get to the gym which by the way i am still paying every month.

Nolan is still at Kolburne School even though he graduated and age out of the B Of Ed and NY state wants all the kids back just that have no way to accommodate them we are looking for a school here, i am not in a hurry i love for him to stay there until he is 22 and is possible, he is on a great place with amazing people he is not happy however, he is enjoying his friends and place but of course he wants to come home he wants to be back to NY i want him to get a school where he can learn and where he feels that he "belongs" he is a very friendly, talkative kid and much more high functioning for the schools we have found, we'll get what's right for him.

So many miracles!! i am so grateful.

On Wednesday May 4/2011 i had to work 3hrs in Manhattan, i left around noon with a latte on my stomach and didn't feel hungry all day which is kind of normal on me, i had maybe a liter of water and a small pack of cashew nuts and raisins mixed when i got off the train at home i knew i had to eat but didn't feel like cooking, i wasn't hungry so i stopped at Popeye's got 2 pieces of spicy chicken = fried dark meat, cajun fries, cole slaw and a diet coke, stuff i like but i rarely eat, i went home ate and got on the computer I've just started

Soul Restoration with Melody Ross so i watch some videos, took notes and around 2am i went to bed, around 4am i woke up with a sharp pain on my abdomen, i got off bed took 4 liquid advil pills and 2 sleeping pills i can tell you was a bad pain, sharp but not specific i assumed was a indigestion for eating fry food, i woke up with pain and tired but again was nothing specific more like a abdominal pain that included my lower abdomen, i had chills and more pills, i told friends and family and since i am someone you will never see sick, not even a cold no allergies nothing everyone kept saying is indigestion, a stomach virus.. so i waited and Saturday i had my friend Fernando come to drop a DVD my friend send me from my Belly Dance class so i asked him would you drop me at my Dr? is a few blocks away but i don't feel like walking he said sure and did he was on his way to Boston with his family, when i got to my Dr's office he just touch my belly and said this is not indigestion is you appendix he wrote a note for me call a car service and send me with that note to the hospital there 2 hrs later i was having surgery, now the fact that Fernando show up was a miracle itself, my Dr sending me with that note was another because who knows how long i was going to have to wait, i got in right away and 2 Indian Drs (sorry for the description=from India) became my protectors...somehow, i was only thirsty and asked for water, they told me you can't drink anything at all and wanted to do a CT on me another Dr insisted to check me implying it could also be ovaries,constipation o even cancer well she did examine me and of course wasn't but she got me a liter of a clear liquid and told me to drink it, just trying to not think of the taste i ask for a straw but put the bottle on my side when a man started moving my bed toward some upper floor, i was taken to a room to get a sonogram the man left a woman started to get ready to do the test i told her i didn't get to drink that she told me not to worry anymore, right before she got that gel on me i see my 2 Drs(Indians) they grabbed the bed and starting running down with me took the elevator down and asked me did you drink anything? and i said no they told me that if i had any i was going to had to wait until morning to get the surgery.. now I've never seen that, it looked like a movie 2 Drs i mean they didn't send for me they went to get me, i would consider that another miracle, got me to the CT and x-ray and figure my appendix had erupted days ago and i had a horrible infection mostly on my small intestine, i had 2 women Drs come to my bed explained that they had to remove part of my small intestine and i will have to use a bag to do #2 and that 2-3 months later they would put it all together again and closed me up, i had 2 other sets of 2 Drs (males) that also told me that THEY were going to be the ones doing the surgery i called my family and told them to get everyone that could pray to focus on my small intestines the apendix was damage already, i was taken to he operating room while waiting by the door on my bed i met the anesthesiologist, the assistant Dr, the nurse and who knows what other person but between those i saw this man leaning over me and asked me how do i feel? and what happen? do you smoke? do you wear dentures? a bunch of questions but he looked like one of those happy guys at the deli you know white hair big smile,chubby, very simple and then he told me I AM your surgeon and i did what i have learned to do lately "let go and let G'd" when i was about to go to sleep the Dr put his hand on my shoulder and told me " i know you heard a lot of Dr's opinions BUT I AM the one that will do it and i will make sure to do it with the smallest damage possible, he said don't worry at all, trust me" that made me feel so incredibly good i was worry but until that second before closing my eyes i was just trying not to think much, the fact that i got this particular Dr is another miracle, he decided that since i was a healthy person no issues at all he was going to let my intestines heal, he told me it will take a while for you to be yourself again but is better than walking around with a bag attached to you, i was in the hospital for 7 days didn't eat for 7 days because i hadn't had food since the Friday before my surgery and my sister flew in the morning of Mother's day to NY to take care of me i am so incredibly grateful because i can't imagine myself alone in the hospital, she was here for 2 weeks and just went back to Fl she cooked for me all day i think i haven't had so much home made food since i lived with my parents, i had a lot of issues taking and breathing and even though was a perfect digestion(as usual) was painful, walking made me feel so tired still does but i am getting better each day, the Dr said i was possibly going to die that Saturday o worse on Mother's day, i am so grateful to be alive, i had friends come to the hospital to see me, i know most of my friends didn't know only those that were my niece/sister's friends too i will be home for another 2 weeks i have my neighbor taken over my sister takes me for walks and brings me food, my friend Molly offered to taken care of me on her house after my sister leaves, i have always known as Kat and Molly know that we can count on each other for anything but it was great to experience good friends,my friend Haydee cooked for me while in the hospital i couldn't eat, she got me bottle water and the first thing my stomach kept was the broth of one of her soups, my friend Luisa send me papaya with my sister just a day i felt my stomach was hot inside a weird feeling but eating that made me feel so much better and so on.... simple little gestures i won't forget, my room in the hospital looked like a flower shop, even my boss (Manhattan job) send me some me flowers ,i doubt i can forget this experience, i don't get sick ever thank G'd because i sure do not like it, i need to keep walking and eat every 3-4 hrs but i am fine i will be back to normal very soon, thank you all for your prayers light and good wishes.

Wow!!

Have i neglected my blog Oh boy! Marry Xmas, happy new Year... is been basically a whole year since i have posted on this blog well my friends are most of them on FaceBook too so we have been in touch, i will be back and post some pictures and tell some stories i've lived this year, it has been productive for Nolan and me at least in a mental and spiritual way we are stronger and better people, more focus on what we need to do,even though we don't seem to have a formal plan of life but we'll get there i just know that, back soon,hugs.

My Sept/Oct News

In the middle of October i spent a weekend at the IBM Palisades Resort
This would be the first time in over 3 months that i walked anywhere out of my house without crutches o cane, the prior weekend a friend who is a Dr in Alternative medicine re-adjusted my hips and i started to walk normally, it has been a very long painful experience, i learned a lot about me and about all that are around me, the way people reacted and i learned how hard is deal with a physical disability in my case thank G'd now gone, anyway in a happier note i had a fabulous time at Stephanie's crop, amazing food in an spectacular hotel, each had its own room which was great at this time for me,the crop was very fun, full of games and prizes i won a couple did some shopping and had a fantastic time with friends i haven't seen in a long time as well as Maryann, Lerida and Tracy all where on my last crop, met new people and rested and re-energized i need it to go away, i've been working and frustrated not been to be able to go to my dance classes o the gym, no matter how much i tried i did gain on whole size, i hate it but to not been able to move much is not bad, i've been walking like crazy and i started to go to my dance classes, i feel like i am living a new life.
This is a class i took











On September 11 my niece Erika came from Fl with her DH to celebrate her 30th Bday in New York with us so i decided to bring Nolan home the same weekend for a visit,we had such a good time at Cabana @ the South Street Seaport, it was a great night with friends and family.



On September 13 i got together with my beautiful friend Alicia she came to visit NYC after been for a while back in Australia and having her baby doll Amelie, Jeannie and Lyn came from Long Branch to NY to see her and have lunch and shop at the South Street Seaport with us.

Some Lo's

Good times on hard times

I fell down he stairs on my sister's house, i went there to help her pack since he is moving and my friend Ruddy came to take us to have dinner with some friends @ their restaurant Green Light Cuisine i fell while going to meet him on his car, i end up going to the ER 4 days later when i realized that wasn't going away, the Dr said is a sprain ankle, took x-rays, i stretched the ligaments on my ankle, he made me a splint (half of a hard cast) wrap my leg and gave me a pair of crutches to walk with for 3 weeks! a week later my Dr told me 4 weeks, is been more than 3 weeks and my ankle is still showing the same colors, swollen and hurting so i am going back to the DR soon, the worse part and most exhausting is the crutches, what i miss the most is dancing, who i miss the most is Nolan i can't let him see me like this so i haven't been able to have him home o go there,I never stopped working not easy but i need it.. to keep going, is really depressing to feel useless and have to depend on others to do things, i spent 10 days at my sister's she took very well care of me, came back home and i packed for a trip with my friend Maryann, this is the first time i go to this retreats "Cropper's Delight" I've been invited for at least 2 years and i finally made it, lots of fun, love the attention and all that included specially winning so many prizes, Maryann and Lerida helped me around and I met a lot of nice new scrappers.
Here are some pics:
At the restaurant

My new accessories

Maryann
Tracy
Relaxing
Playing

prize
prize
Lerida and Maryle
Roommates
with the organizer